When i last wrote i Spock of a mystery lover that i could see myself with. But turns out i was wrong to think so. This guy i wanted to be with told me that he felt the same way but for a health reason it can't happen. I understand that he might be scared to have something that may end within a few months or years but somewhere deep down i think he is only saying that to get out of being in a relationship because the thought of being in a real long term relationship scares him more then the future it's self.
I know someone personally who is in the same position as him and yet he got married had two beautiful kids and keeps on putting one step in front of him because he wants to live for his family he wants to live for his own path and his own happy some what future. Which is why i think my mystery lover is being selfish and i know that word selfish has a big mean towards it but i can't help how i feel about this whole situation. If my mystery lover dose read this know that i am sorry if i have offended you wasn't my intentions i just had to let it all out.
Anyways i am still doing my business class but feel like i am still overwhelm with the work load and i am glad that #SmartCity i willing to help me and are great when explaining the most simplest question. I really want to pass this so i am going to continue to keep my head down and try and try and when that doesn't work try some more.
In other news i have to congratulate my dear friend Megan for the happy news of her Engagement and the news of her upcoming baby. Who i know will be beautiful and kind and giving loving person just like her mom is. Congratulations Megan .L.
Anyways i got to go talk when i have other news to report. Also i am leaving the link up so those who are interested in going to #SmartCity can fine all the details. Also i just want to say to everyone who is reading this that when someone says to you that you can't do this or you are poor at doing that. Don't let it get to you prove them wrong learn more about what you are doing and improve or walk away from them and continue to live your life because at the end of the day they don't live for you, you live for yourself so be happy do things that make you happy. Haters will hate so let them you just focus on being happy with yourself and the thing and people you love.
All my thoughts and prays and love go out to the people of #Italy
HERE IS THE LINK FOR SMART CITY----------------- https://www.smartcitycollege.edu.au/
Thank you all for reading this it dose mean the world to me.
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